Royal Duty Ch.11 TEASER :)

Oh Em Gee, there's going to be two different fic updates in less than three days!!!

How exciting...well, it is for me anyways :D

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Royal Duty, Chapter 11 - A Royal Illness

The morning light pouring through the giant windows of Edward’s room pierced my eyelids, and I rolled over with a groan.

It was too bright, and it felt like I’d barely fallen asleep when it awakened me.

Even with my eyes closed, it felt like it was burning my retinas, causing way too much pain. It wasn’t until I opened them that I realised it wasn’t just the light; my head was pounding, and my mouth was dry.

Then I remembered that I hadn’t fallen asleep all that long ago, and I remembered the reason why: Edward’s confessions.

I turned my head on the pillow, my eyes drinking in the sight of a pale, very still Edward. The sheets around him were soaked with sweat; his hair was plastered to his head, and his skin was clammy. In the short hours I’d been afforded some sleep, whatever was wrong with him seemed to have only gotten worse.

The clock on his bedside table told me it was a little after six, and while it seemed obscenely early to me, I knew the palace would be stirring and that I wouldn’t sleep a wink more.

My head was wild with thoughts and emotions, concern for my fiancé overriding anything and everything that I had soaked in the night before. I should have been clued in that worrying for his wellbeing trumped everything else I should have been feeling.

I’d been lied to, for years. I’d been foolish, naïve and stupid. My life had been turned upside down by something I hadn’t had a say in and turned again when my parents made a decision without informing me of its consequences.

I couldn’t lock myself in the room and hate the world. I couldn’t blame everyone for ruining my life the way I wanted to. No, some of it was on me.

I shook my head, thoughts of children’s laughter and secret hideaways morphing into all those stolen looks I’d caught Edward sending my way when he thought I wouldn’t notice. All the times he’d stuck up for me with wedding details when it seemed no one else was listening. All the times he made me feel special in just one night at the party, despite having the onset of some illness.

I hadn’t been blind to any of it; I’d just told myself not to notice, that Edward was the bad guy in the whole situation. I’d been stupid. I’d treated him like he didn’t matter, to the point where he believed that maybe he didn’t.

Dismissing the fact that I still had the previous night’s makeup on, my hair still pinned, and my pyjamas on, I left Edward’s suite and made my way to Sue to enquire about a doctor.

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Should be up tomorrow all being well! :D

See you soon xx

FMN Ch.50 Teaser :):)

Oh Dear Lord!

It is the season for miracles after all, so that must be what this is! Can you believe your eyes?? It's a Forget Me Not chapter!!!!!!!

Little teaser to whet your appetites, the chapter should be up no later than Wednesday!!!

Happy reading! If there's any of you left out there!!

xx

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Chapter 50 - Just A Phone Call Away

Would it be okay if I called you? E

And then again, signalling the arrival of another one.

Friends call each other, right? I don’t know anymore… E

Even in his simple texts I could feel his confusion and heartache, and it made the pain in my chest intensify. Instead of thinking about the consequences or texting him an answer, I let my thumb hover over his name before pressing the call button.

It only rang two times before he picked it up.

“Hey,” he whispered, his voice hoarse.

My throat completely closed over at the sound of his broken voice and the silence amplified the beating of my heart in my chest.

“Bella?” he asked, concern taking over in his tone, giving me the push I needed to actually answer him.

“Hi…” I sounded pathetic, but I had no idea how unprepared I was for so simple a thing as a phone call until it was happening.

His answering sigh let me know that even my pathetic greeting was enough. It helped ease the pain slightly, knowing that even the sound of my voice seemed to make whatever he was going through even a little more bearable.

“You’re not busy are you?”

I held back the laugh that wanted to bubble out of me. Since I’d cut him out of my life, I’d barely been able to fill up the hours in my day.

“Oh, you know. Lying in the dark contemplating life…” I wanted to face-palm so badly, but held it back and bit my tongue. I wasn’t quite sure how Edward would take such a strange answer.

When there was no answer, I whispered his name into the darkness, relishing the way my skin tingled and my mouth dried up at the mere mention of his name after so long.

“Tell me,” I whispered, no longer afraid to hear just exactly what he was going through. If either of us was going to make it out the other side, we’d need to be strong enough to face things head on.

“Every time I close my eyes I have a nightmare. It’s usually the same one…my crash, only you’re in the car, too, and no matter what I do, I can’t get you out in time. I can’t close my eyes without hearing you screaming, I can’t sleep without waking up screaming myself. Kate says I need to feel it, but there’s only so many times I can handle the thought of you dying only to wake up and realize it didn’t happen, Bella.”

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Ahhhhh, thank you all individually from the bottom of my heart if you're still with me on this! Your patience has been tried and tested many times! xxxxxx

Royal Duty Ch.10 Teaser :D

Hey all!!

So, here's the teaser I promised you! Hope you all enjoy it and look forward to what it suggests is coming!

I'm excited for y'all to read the chapter :):):)

Onwards...

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Chapter 10 - Incoherent Truths

I felt a tug on my train and turned, puzzled. Rosalie and Alice were at the side of the altar in their places, and everyone else should have been sitting. There was nothing in my line of sight, but when I looked down, there was a gorgeous little boy sitting on the train of my dress, grinning a gap-toothed smile up at me.

The congregation was chuckling at the sweet little boy in his mini tux and bowtie, and I couldn’t help but join them. I was confused though, there were no children of that age at the ceremony, and I wasn’t sure what he was doing there.

Edward surprised me by letting go of my hand and stooping down to pick up the boy.

“Kiddo, what are you doing? You’re going to ruin Mama’s dress!”

I felt faint as I listened to his sugared tones speak those particular words. Mama? I had a son? We had a son?

“Edward?” I whispered, uncertainty clouding my tone.

“Don’t worry; I’ll give him to my mother.” He winked at me before turning back to the boy. “You’ll behave for Mummy and Daddy won’t you?” The little person nodded enthusiastically and giggled when the mass of people behind him chuckled again.

I followed my eyes to Edward’s parent’s in the front row, sitting alongside my mother with a little baby girl in her arms. My eyes widened as Edward made his way back to me, childless.

“They’ll be just like us one day. Only brother and sister. Not future husband and wife…” I laughed at the adorable frown on my husband’s face as he realised what he’d said.

I awoke, startled, just as my dream Edward pressed his lips to my cheek. A dark room and Edward’s scent and warmth invaded my senses as I slowly remembered where I was.

I froze in place, realising Edward’s arm was around my waist, and the real man had just placed a kiss on my cheek like his dream counterpart.

 

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It should be up soon!! :D

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FMN Ch.50 Teaser :)

Yes, you read that correctly!! :D

After months of nothing, I am working on chapter 50! Can't believe there are that many chapters, and that we've been on this journey for so long!

I want to thank you all for sticking with me, I do know it's been a very long time since we started out and that your patience has been tested many times!

I can't give you a date as to when this chapter will be posted, but I'm 3000 words into it so it shouldn't be too long!

In the meantime, enjoy this little tease, and I'll speak to you all soon!

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Chapter 50 - Just a Phone Call Away

My phone buzzed quietly from somewhere beside my ear and I rolled over, searching blindly on top of the covers for the little device. The screen lit up as I flipped it open, and everything around me just seemed to pause. I could no longer hear my dad or even the storm.

Edward had sent me a text.

My hands started to tremble as I remembered the last texts I had received from him. Sure enough, they were still there, three separate little bubbles of text one after the other.

I miss you.

I love you.

I’m sorry.

The newest one sat there underneath them, all innocent and innocuous. Just my name with a question mark, as if he wasn’t sure that was still my number. Granted, I could have changed it, so maybe he really was that unsure, but something told me he had no idea how else to start up a conversation, and giving the way I’d ended things and avoided him for weeks, I couldn’t exactly blame him.

It had been four days since our talk in the quad. I had spent my weekend in Port Angeles with Rose, first on Saturday shopping for a graduation dress, and again on Sunday with Alice too, both of them just spending an obscene amount of money on whatever grabbed their attention.

Alice said she just wanted to get out of the house. I was too chicken to ask her why. Rose never needed a reason to spend money. I was treated to lunch and we even had our nails done in a salon owned by one of Rose’s aunts.

Edward hadn’t come back to school after the weekend, and I knew it was because he was having a bad day. I hardly saw Alice all day, so I didn’t get to act on my new resolution to ask her how he was doing as often as I could.

But he was reaching out. He initiated our “friends” relationship by sending me a seemingly random text, but if he was having a bad day, then it was obvious it meant far more to him than that if he got a reply. My fingers could barely hit the right keys as I replied.

 

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Breaking the Radio Silence...

Hey all!

If there is in fact anyone ledt out there!!

I know we've been through this before, and I can only apologise, but I hope for those of you who have been with me long enough, you know that I don't leave you hanging for no reason, and I will always come back to my writing!

For those of you reading Royal Duty - which is quite a large number - I'd like to let you know that the next chapter is currently with the beta and I hope to have it up in the next 10 days at most...before then there will be a teaser and I hope you don't miss it :D

Thank you to everyone who's sent me little messages to check in and encourage me through, you are all fabulous readers and I cherish you all :D

So keep your eyes peeled for the teaser very soon :D

xxx

Forget Me Not Ch.49 TEASER :D

Hey guys!

I honestly have no idea if this is posting on time or not?? But it's not a three month wait so I guess I'm doing well anyways :D

We left Edward in a very dark place in the last chapter, and I decided to leave Bella alone for now to concentrate on E. This whole chapter is EPOV and I'd like to point out that while "not much" is happening, we are skipping forward through a few weeks in each chapter. Keep that in mind while reading :D

Onwards!

Chapter 49 - The Heart Never Lies

I’d begged Kate to take me off the pills, and it took her days to even slightly agree. She told me again and again that I couldn’t just stop taking them, that she was afraid of what I might do if I no longer had them.

She tried to tell me just how bad I was, but I couldn’t remember a time before them, so I had no idea if she was lying or not. She promised me eventually – after a week of begging – that she’d severely drop my dosage and only ever give me stronger pills when it was clear I needed them.

I didn’t ask how she would know. I didn’t want to know what was going through her head as she jotted down a new dosage for my dad to pick up at the hospital. There was something in her eyes when she looked at me, like she was scared, unsure of her decision.

If she was scared, then surely that meant I should be too. I didn’t want to be scared; I was a fucking coward and decided that I didn’t want to know in advance what I might go through in the future. I didn’t want to be constantly waiting around for my world to crash around my ears.

I didn’t know just how much she’d lowered my dosage by, but as the week passed, it was obvious it was miniscule if anything. I didn’t feel any better than I had, I still spaced out on way more occasions than I should have, and I slept all the fucking time.

The pain in my chest didn’t go away, I kept thinking maybe it would lessen with time, with pills, with seeing Bella every day at school, but it was always there, and always intensified tenfold when I lay on my bed at night.

Kate took to telling me that people who often go through breakups experience the same grief similar to when someone dies. She told me the same thing every time we had a new “session,” as if continually rubbing in that Bella was gone was best for me.

Maybe it was.

I’d given up fighting her on most things. I hadn’t given up fighting for me, or for Bella, but I had to trust that Carlisle and Kate knew what they were doing. If she thought keeping me on my medication was best, then it was.

I fucking hated the grogginess that settled over me – usually around mid-afternoon – but my body was beginning to finally rebuild its strength, and when night came, I was actually functional.

I continued to go to school, I continued to watch Bella like a hawk, but things had changed irrevocably. She was hurting too, and while it was wrong, I took comfort in that. Breaking up had been her idea, and no matter how hard I tried, there were still times when I wondered if she’d actually wanted to go separate ways and had just used me as an excuse.

Of course, in times of lucidity I knew that was ridiculous. I knew she loved me, maybe even more than I’d loved her at the time, and seeing the change in her at school led me to believe that us being apart was as hard on her as it was on me.

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This chapter should be up on Sunday :D

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Royal Duty Ch.8 TEASER :D

Hey everybody!

If you haven't already heard, my poor little laptop has a serious virus at the moment!! Unfortunately, this means that while it's been down for the last week, I've dropped behind on my pre-written chapters.

I do have three pre-written chapters of Royal Duty left, but I'd like to let you know that I'm going to space out my updates by a few more days - so ten days instead of a week - that kind of thing, just so I can get back on top of things.

As I said at the start, this fic isn't particularly long. I'm trying to get it finished in 20 chapters, but if you  know me, then you'll know that probably won't happen. I'm hoping anyways!!

So, I'm managing to get this out to you in the mean time, and I'd like you all to cross your fingers that I can continue to use my laptop for the next few days because between my four in progress fics, I have a lot of shit to do!!

I hope to have this chapter up by the weekend, and I hope you enjoy the teaser in the meantime :D:D

Onwards...

Chapter 8 - Show Time

“He should be in bed,” she remarked kindly.

“I asked him if he was up to it, but he was insistent.”

“Of course he was. This is your engagement party. And in that dress? You can’t blame him for wanting every man in this room to see you with him.” My jaw dropped as Alison giggled lightly. I was unsure as to whether Alec had filled her in on “the situation,” but her next comment told me he hadn’t.

“That boy is mad about you. He probably didn’t want to let you down. Maybe you could play it off as him being lovesick?” She giggled again, and I tried to join in but it died in my throat, making her look at me in concern.

“I didn’t mean to speak out of turn, Princess. Forgive me.” She bowed her head slightly, and I told myself to get a grip.

“Not at all, Alison. There is nothing to forgive. I’m a little nervous tonight, is all.”

“He won’t let you down, Princess, he’s been waiting for tonight for a very long time after all. I guess you both have.” She smiled as Alec and Edward re-joined us, taking her husband’s arm and both of them bidding us goodbye.

I played her words down. She’d clearly just read the article and, like was supposed to happen, believed every word. It did surprise me that Alec hadn’t told her the truth about us, however. Before she was diagnosed with cancer, she used to work in the palace gardens and, like her husband, knew everything that went on behind its doors.

My hand was back in Edward’s, and I didn’t know how it got there. Had I reached out and weaved my fingers through his without realising? Or was I so caught up in the riddles I’d been living with for weeks that I hadn’t noticed Edward’s gentle touch. I turned to find him with his eyes shut and breathing deeply and decided I must have done it because he was in no state to do anything

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Royal Duty Ch.7 TEASER :D

Hey all!

Tis that time, Edward is back and things are moving forward! Yay, let's get on with it shall we?

Enjoy x

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Chapter 7 - The Engagement Party

Our engagement interview was aired that night on the six o’clock news. The reporters remarked on how happy and relaxed we looked together, how naturally we seemed to handle the questions, the sadness surrounding our story, and the fairytale ending we seemed to have secured.

The engagement was everywhere. Only one official photo had been released, a shot of the two of us standing arm in arm, my engagement ring in full view and smiles on both of our faces.

My dress and hair were critiqued in every magazine, and it didn’t take long for copies to hit the shelves for the “everyday” woman to purchase.

I tried to ignore everything as much as I could. Instead, I found myself in a constant bubble of thought. Thoughts that only centred on one thing: Edward. I couldn’t get him out of my head. Every time I turned a corner in the palace I thought saw him. Every time I heard someone speaking with a similar tone of voice, my heart went into overdrive.

When he told me he was leaving, I knew I’d miss him, but I wasn’t aware of just how much.

My mother had knocked on the door to my suite the night he left to tell me his car had just pulled out of the garage. She seemed surprised that he had packed a few bags into the boot, but I reassured her he was coming back. Or at least, I thought I was reassuring her. It turned out I was trying to assure myself.

“Honey, that boy is mad about you. Nothing would be able to keep him away.” She held me close, and for the first time in weeks, I let someone else comfort me.

“But why? I don’t get it, I’ve been so mean to him…” I shuddered at the thought, and my mother’s arms tightened around me as she rocked me back and forth on the sofa.

“Have you spoken to him? Really spoken to him?” she prodded.

I nodded my head and pulled back, letting her take my hands in hers and gazing upon her soft features.

“He told me he’d wait for as long as it took for me to trust him before we got married, but it seemed like he wanted to say something else.” I knew in my heart what it was; he wanted me to love him before we got married, but saying it aloud was a terrifying thought.

“He said he wrote the story we told the press and that it wasn’t a lie…I don’t understand what he was talking about. I was too busy trying to think up ways to make him stay…but he left, mother. He’s gone…”

“But he is coming back…Isabella, these last few weeks have been hard on him, too. He has no family here, no friends. I know he hoped you two would become close, but you haven’t given him the chance to get to know you…he just needs a couple of weeks to find his bearings and probably say goodbye to his old life.”

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Should be up in the next few days!

Sarah x

Forget Me Not Ch.48 TEASER :D

Hey guys!

I know this one is overdue! I was doing so well with the schedule, but work has been kicking my ass the last two weeks so I had no time whatsoever to write!

I sat down today and managed to hammer out the chapter though. I have to warn you that it's dark...much darker than I thought it was going to be. Maybe I should be worried at how easily I can write darkness and angst?

Anyways, the chapter will be up as soon as I get replies out to your wonderful reviews on ffn :D

Enjoy x

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Chapter 48 - Darkness

Every night before sleep took me, I felt the same raw pain in my chest.

It was like it waited in the darkness for me, and pounced the second I was at my most vulnerable.

I was trying to deal with it.

I was adamant that it wasn’t going to break me, but fighting it, quelling it, was the hardest thing I think I’ve ever had to do.

Tears fell silently onto my pillow as I recalled the pain in Edward’s voice when I told him it was over. My heart would replay the pain it felt at the time, over and over, intensifying it in my loneliness. I knew it was for the best, but it was ripping me to shreds and I had no idea how to stop it from destroying me.

Jasper could tell. Hell, I think everyone could tell. They all watched me carefully at school, deliberately avoiding the topic of Edward altogether. Alice pulled me away from my locker and into a tight hug one afternoon before I went to biology – alone, as Edward had yet to come back to school – but that been the extent of it. Other than that, it was one massive elephant in the room that no one wanted to address.

It wasn’t until the following Monday that my strength was truly put to the test. Edward was back at school. I watched with mounting anxiety as his silver Volvo pulled into the school parking lot. I noticed him slow down as he entered, turning his wheels in the direction of my truck, but at the last minute he zoomed over to the opposite side and parked by the trees.

I knew it was inevitable, that he had to come back. I overheard Alice telling Jasper in the lunch queue on Friday that he was still recovering from the aftereffects of his panic attack. She said he was weak, suffering from migraines and irritable. She also said that he was becoming restless, staring at his phone when he thought no one was looking and spending equal amounts staring at his car keys.

The end of her sentence hung in the air. I wasn’t sure if they knew I’d heard, but we all knew what the latter of all of that stemmed from. He wanted me to call, or at least reply to the three texts he’d sent me. He was staring at his car keys because he was fighting the overwhelming urge to run away again. Whether he wanted to come and see me was another thing, I was genuinely unsure whether he wanted that or not.

I knew my breaking up with him was somewhat of a final straw for him, but with the positive things Alice whispered, I found solace in the fact that it had been the right thing to do. She’d returned home from school to find him talking heatedly with his therapist. I found out she was now staying with the Cullens, and Edward was getting around the clock care. She said, loud enough this time for me to hear, the he had refused antidepressants and drugs, saying he wanted to know if he was strong enough to get through it on his own.

My heart welled with pride the same time my eyes pricked with tears. He must have been so scared, so alone and so hurt, but he was fighting it by himself, adamant that he do it on his own. He was so much stronger than he realized, and I hoped he’d come to the same realization as me – that he could do it on his own.

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Chapter should be up by the weekend!! :D

Royal Duty Ch.6 TEASER :D

Hey all!!

This week's teaser is a few days early - see how much I appreciate you all? :P

Chapter 6 (this one) has been completely rewritten to mould into a plotline I didn't set out with in mind, but you guys were not enjoying the wait in the original, so the conversation in this chapter is at least 4 chapters earlier than planned...However, I'm sticking with some of my original ideas, so you won't get it all your way :P

I hope you enjoy this chapter, and think better of Bella, Edward and me, at the end of it :D

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Chapter 6 - Fears and Fittings

I stared at him, not sure what, or even if, I was supposed to say something.

He raised his eyes, but they wouldn’t meet mine, and I found myself desperate to look into the deep green depths. I didn’t know him very well, but I already knew that any time I looked into his eyes, I’d see the truth and know where I stood – he didn’t even need to say anything.

Suddenly, insecurities I didn’t even know I’d been harbouring surfaced in me, making it harder to breathe.

“You’re leaving…” I whispered. The pain those simple words caused me nearly knocked the wind out of me as I sat up straighter and brought myself closer to him. I knew, right then, that despite everything I’d put him through, and the fact that it would be my fault if he did, I didn’t want him to go.

His head snapped up, shock and confusion written across his face, but a tiny bit of acceptance lingering in his eyes. It was like I had just made up his mind for him. I felt foolish, he hadn’t been thinking of that at all, but I’d just put the idea in his head.

“I’ve been trying so hard, Bella. You don’t even seem to care that we’re in this together…” He shook his head in frustration. Standing up, the hand that I’d been about to lay on his fell back to my lap and he stared down at it in silence.

“I-I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what I was supposed to feel. I still don’t know how I’m supposed to feel. It’s like everyone around me is expecting something and I don’t know if I’m feeling it because they want me to or because I actually, truly do. I feel so angry that I was lied to, misled, when you weren’t.

“Five years is a long time, Edward. It might not seem like it, and I get that this was forced on you, too, I do, but you’ve had five years. I haven’t even had five weeks…”

Tears leaked from the corners of my eyes and I brushed them away angrily.

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The chapter should be up by the weekend :D I'll be replying to all your reviews between now and then so look out for that too :D

See you soon xx

Beyond the Glass Ch.22 TEASER :D

Wow, no you didn't read that wrong, there really is a new chapter of BtG!!


I can't apologise enough for the wait you've all patiently endured, I know most of you already know that it just wasn't coming to me.


Thankfully most of you read more than one of my fics and haven't been compeletely starved, FMN is doing well! :P


Anyways, a little teaser for the next chapter to get you in the mood :D Oh, and a recap of what happened last might help :P


Previously - Jasper found out what Edward tried to do and walked out, stating that they were over and that Edward "ruins everything." Edward got his moment with Bella, told her the truth about his fear of her, kissed the girl numb and then got his heart broken when Bella told him Jasper had got there before him. He walked out, a broken man, and Bella realised the epic mistake she'd made. Since then, her music has been picking up on YouTube and James has turned into the star we all love. Bella confronted her mother about her savings and found herself her own place. She's moved out, moved on and moving up with her life, free of Edward, heartache and her mother.

Chapter 22 - A House is not a Home

I’d spent the better part of a month trying to forget about Edward and his departure, but no matter how hard I tried, it was still there. The feel of his hands on my skin, the taste of his mouth on mine. I heard the sound of his voice – quiet and reserved – as he told me the truth for the first time. I remembered the look in his eyes as he tried to make me understand.

Then I remembered the pain in my chest when I had to shatter his ideas, the tugging I felt deep inside as he walked away from me. The fissure I felt cracking open when Heidi told me he was gone, the shame I felt when I realized it was my fault. The disgust at myself when I realized I’d used two guys at the same time – two best friends – and pitted them against one another unknowingly. The hurt I felt when I lost both of them.

My fingers were flying over the keys angrily until the same melody sounded again and again. It smoothed out when I thought over all the headlines I’d read in that same month – the ones about me, the ones about Jasper, but mostly the ones about Edward.

He was back in New York, back to his old ways: the drinking, the girls, the parties. There was barely a day that went passed without a picture of him falling out of some club with two girls on his arm from the night before.

I fell silent. New York had never appealed to me, even when I’d stayed there, but I remembered Jamie saying it was by far the best city in the world. The soul, the music, the sounds, the feel, everything was alive he’d said. I wondered if Edward liked being there, if he felt alive while he was there.

For the first time since he’d left, I wished with every part of my being that he’d walk back through my door. Maybe he’d smile, or maybe he’d just smirk cockily as I lost my nerve with whatever I’d been playing. He’d sit on the couch behind Jamie, cross his legs at his ankles and stretch out like he owned the place, revelling in the way I completely fell apart in his presence.

God, I missed him.

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Fanfiction Fail!

Hey guys!

I'm sure you've all noticed the numerous update e-mails from ffn about Royal Duty...

It seems some of you can see the chapter but not review, and the rest of you can't access it at all!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

So, I've taken it down completely for now. I'll only wait until tomorrow and try again. Hopefully the problem doesn't persist, it usually only fails for a few hours.

Sorry for the inconvenience, I will post it as soon as possible!

Thanks for your patience :D

Sarah x

Royal Duty Ch.5 TEASER :D

Hey all!

It's that time of the week again! :D:D

I'm doing pretty well with keeping on schedule with these updates, I'm quite proud of myself :)

Anyways, I'm editing the chapter this evening and replying to all your awesome reviews, so in the meantime you can have a little teaser to whet your appetite for tomorrow :D

Enjoy! x

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“I heard her before I saw her – someone squealing in delight, a voice that was getting closer. I don’t recall if anyone else noticed, but I was intrigued. Isabella came barrelling around the corner in this little blue dress and white shoes, laughing and squealing. It turned out she’d been playing hide and seek with one of her father’s closest advisors, and she’d run away when he threatened to tickle her.

“I didn’t even speak to her that day, but I don’t think I’ll ever forget her smile or the way she looked.”

“Clearly. You can even remember what she was wearing!” Marcus exclaimed.

“I hope I don’t embarrass myself by admitting that I think I was probably smitten. She was pretty, or at least that’s what I thought at the time,” Edward answered, squeezing my hand and smiling at me.

“At the time?” Marcus asked.

“Well, now, she’s the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. Pretty doesn’t do her justice.” I blushed under his gaze and dropped my head as Marcus turned to look at me.

“Isabella?” Marcus probed, wanting to know what I had to say to that.

“I’m afraid I don’t remember that day, Marcus. I guess I was too young,” I admitted at least partially truthfully. I would have been too young, if it had ever happened.

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Yes, it's that time!! You will all find out what really happened all those years ago, and just how well they knew each other :D:D

See you all soon!

Sarah x

Royal Duty Ch.4 TEASER :)

Hey all!

So usually, by this point in the week, the new chapter would already be put up but I've been working crazy hours and helping with too many things to even begin to mention!

I apologise that y'all are waiting 2/3 days extra for the actual chapter, but I hope you enjoy the teaser anyways...I LOVED writing this chapter, and chapter 5, so I genuinely do hope you enjoy reading them :)

Onwards!

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Chapter 4: A Royal Engagement

Even the date had been set. No one else knew, but Edward and I had sat at either side of the fireplace in his suite one cool evening to discuss it. He had a glass of bourbon in his right hand and I folded mine atop my knee as I watched him swirl the amber liquid mindlessly. I had tried to ignore the way his eyes lingered on my ankles and moved up my bare legs. I blamed the heat I felt in my exposed skin down to the fire quietly crackling beside me. I pretended I hadn’t caught him looking, and ignored the way he tried to concentrate on the conversation again.

It was a heady feeling, knowing someone was obviously attracted to you, and wanted to spend time with you. I felt powerful in his presence, like I could make him do anything if it meant pleasing me, but for some reason I also felt vulnerable. I didn’t want him to know anything about me, scared he might use it somewhere down the line, to the extent that we always talked about him. I had gotten into the habit of changing the subject every time he asked about me or my past.

I was sure he was on to me, but each time he would just smile sadly to himself and stare into the distance. I didn’t know what he was thinking, but I wanted to. I wanted to know what he thought of me, our wedding, my family, the palace I had grown up in…but to ask him outright would be to admit to being curious, and I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of gaining my attention.

“It’s the start of May now, maybe June? Is that enough time for invitations to go out and everything else to be sorted?” he’d asked me softly, his eyes very much on mine.

“It’s a Royal wedding. If we announced it to be at the end of next week everyone would still show up. And I was assured my dress would be ready within a month, that was the only thing that was going to take a long time,” I’d replied. I’d given my order – as it were – almost two weeks prior, so June would work.

“How about the twentieth?” I’d asked. For some reason the date had been floating around in my head for weeks, and I had no idea why. I’d checked every diary I still had in my possession and the calendars around the palace to see if there was anything special about it, but I couldn’t find anything.

Edward had looked surprised as he answered me. “The twentieth of June? Why?”

He’d looked away quickly when I shrugged. “I don’t know really. It’s been stuck in my head for a while. We can choose another day if you don’t like it.”

His piercing gaze landed on me and I’d fidgeted under its intensity. He looked like he was trying to figure me out, like maybe I was lying about something, and I wasn’t sure what he’d find.

“No, I guess the twentieth isn’t any different from any other day. We’ll go with the twentieth.”

Once again, his eyes had held that faraway sadness I’d come to know, but got nowhere closer to understanding why. It was like everything I said, everything I did, and most importantly, everything I didn’t say or do, made him sad.
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Should be up on Saturday folks!!

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Royal Duty Teaser: Ch.3! :D

Hey all!!!

I'm taking today to reply to all your wonderful reviews, so I'm leaving you a little teaser to tide you over until tomorrow :D

Hope y'all enjoy :D:D

xx

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Edward was sitting across from me, his foot resting alongside mine under the table, and I’d been trying to ignore the way the fabric of his jeans brushed my bare leg every time he fidgeted, which was a lot.

The dark shadows under his eyes told me he hadn’t slept, again, and the out-of-control manner of his hair was the outcome of him running his fingers through it all morning. From watching him surreptitiously over the last weeks, I knew this to be an outlet of his stress. If he was frustrated or annoyed, with himself or others, he took it out on his precious locks. Yes, they were precious, I’d come to admire them in the short time I’d known him-while everyone else in the palace was turned out to perfection, he dressed casually and comfortably, and his hair was never, ever tamed.

I liked it that way. He seemed more normal to me that way.

His eyes snapped to mine when my mother’s outburst garnered his attention, and I blushed under his scrutiny. I didn’t want him to know I’d been thinking about him instead of my – our – wedding cake, and I was terrified he’d be able to read it all over me with those inquisitive emerald eyes of his.

“I’m sorry, I’m a little warm. Out of the first half, I like six, nine and eleven the most. I’m just going to get some air, ask Edward which he prefers.” I avoided eye contact with him as I blushed deeper, knowing I hadn’t used his name in a very long time, if ever.

This was the first wedding meeting we’d both been present for, so I’d never had to act like an in-love fiancée in front of anyone before. I wasn’t sure I was actually managing it. I’d barely looked at him, hardly asked him his opinion and avoided interacting with him at all. They had to know something was up.

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TEASER: Forget Me Not Ch-47 :)

Forget Me Not - Chapter 47 - Alone

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I was sure in my head, somewhere, I knew why Bella was avoiding my calls, but I guessed I just didn’t want to face it. I needed her to forgive me, or at least to see me so I could apologize the way she deserved. What she did after that was her decision, but I knew for certain when a whole day passed of her avoiding me that I would fight whatever that decision was.

I was confined to my bed, told I had to rest completely to give my body a chance to recover. As I lay there, my stomach was in knots, gnawing away at my insides, telling me I didn’t stand a chance with Bella after what had happened. After the way I had treated her. My phone was never far from my reach, and I waited anxiously for it to ring. Fuck if it did. I would even sometimes check to see if I’d accidentally turned it off, or if it was on silent, but I knew better, deep down I knew she didn’t want to see me.

We were over, but I couldn’t come to terms with it.

I kept my sketchbook beside me, tracing my fingers over the countless drawings I had done for her since we’d met. I couldn’t stop myself from wondering if I’d ever drawn her before. Surely I must have. Where was everything from my time in New York? There had to be receipts or ticket stubs I’d kept, mementos from our dates, if we even ever had any.

I tried to remember the way she felt beneath my hands that weekend in the tent, the way her skin tasted when I kissed her, the noises she made when I held her the right way, the scent of her hair when I buried my face in her neck. It only frustrated me further when I couldn’t remember the way her laugh sounded when I said something funny, it was completely obliterated by the sound of her screaming at me that day in her house. It played on repeat in my head and no matter what I did, I couldn’t get it out.

She’d stayed Wednesday night with me, but then she’d left first thing in the morning. Did she just need time to herself to understand how she was feeling? She’d taken care of me; she loved me. I could feel it in her touch. I found myself panicking; maybe I’d imagined it, willed it to be true. What if she no longer loved me?

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I'm afraid I can't keep to my two week deadline this week, but I promise this chapter won't be more than a few days late :) I'm already at 3500 thousand words, and I know where I'm going, so until it is posted, I hope you savour this little tease to bide you over :D

Sarah x

Royal Duty Ch.2 Teaser :D

Hey all!

I've been blown away by the response to this story! 417 favourites over on ffn and I've only posted one chapter! Thanks to everyone who is reading and reviewing!

Chapter two should go up either later today or tomorrow, but until then, I'll leave you a little tease :D

Sarah x

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“Leaving so soon, Princess? I’m hurt…” That voice.

With my shoulders squared, I looked back at the doorway and found a man standing in it, his shoulder against the wood, one foot crossed over the other one, and his arms folded in front of him. His slate-grey cotton t-shirt, and the dark-wash jeans that hung perfectly from his hips atop his brown leather high-tops, made his skin seem pale, but the way his clothes fit him had me thinking completely different thoughts altogether.

Thoughts, I reminded myself, I shouldn’t have been thinking at all. This man, no matter how good looking he had turned out to be, was my enemy, of sorts.

He was looking at me expectantly, but not in an “I’m waiting for an answer” kind of way. It was almost like he was waiting for me to prove something to him, and I couldn’t figure out what it was.

His face was angular, his jaw covered by a slight shadow, his eyes sparkling in the light that reached them, and his hair…it wasn’t until I reached his hair that I realised I was looking at the same man the maid in the palace had been talking about. She had been right.

It took me too long to realise I had been staring for far too long, and my tongue was slow to spring into action.

“Yes, well, it seems I was tricked into coming down here. I have no intention of sticking around, so I bid you good-day.”

I noticed his face fall and wondered why before I reminded myself I didn’t care. I had only taken two steps when his voice stopped me again.

“Wait, I’m sorry. I should have introduced myself.”

There was an edge of desperation to his voice that I couldn’t quite understand as I stood with my back to him. Stubbornly I didn’t turn around, nor did I answer him. I realised I was being rude and aloof, but I just stood there, waiting for him to continue.

“Princess?” His voice was closer this time; he’d come up behind me without my hearing him. Sighing internally, I turned slowly, noting the way my heart rate stuttered as I took in his close proximity.

We stood in silence, staring at each other. I could feel my face heating the longer I was subjected to his gaze, but more than that, I felt warm as his eyes flicked over my face, between my eyes, down over my lips, following the flowing curls of my hair.

Royal Duty is up!!

Hey all!

Just a quick post to let you all know that my newest fic, Royal Duty, is up on fanfiction for y'all to have a wee peek at if you so desire :D

Don't forget to let me know what you think if you do :D

Sarah x

FMN Ch.46 Track!

Chapter 46 of Forget Me Not has gone live!!

Here's the link if you need it, but by now I'm pretty sure you know where to find it :)

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5875203/46/Forget_Me_Not

Also, the song for this chapter was found by complete chance while I was surfing through youtube videos. Leddra is an English singer/songwriter, but hardly known at all. I think this should change. Check out her youtube page and her amazing songs.

This one is A Little Easier and the lyrics are scarily right for the chapter, but my fave has got to be Story so check em both out if you have the time!! :D

Anyways, hope you enjoy the chapter and I hope to hear from you!! This one is dedicated to Fathers Day, so happy Dad's Day to all the dad's and dads-to-be out there!

Sarah x

FMN Ch.46 Teaser :D

Hey all!!

I'm on schedule again this chapter for posting! Really happy that it looks like I'm back into the swing of things :)

Anyways, the chapter should be going up either tomorrow or Monday, but in the mean time I thought I'd leave you with a wee teaser :D

Enjoy xx

Chapter 46 - Go A Little Easier

Everything hurt, like seriously, everything.

My head was heavy, with an ache right up the centre of my skull, my legs were cramped from being in the same position, and my eyes had me wanting to scream in pain when I opened them. Not to mention my chest, fuck, everything in my chest hurt.

Someone had just shut the door. That was what had woken me up. I glanced at the clock, screwing my eyes up to try and read it. I couldn’t really make sense of what I was reading and wondered why the hell my brain couldn’t just tell me what time it was.

What the fuck had Carlisle given me?

I remembered him talking to me in that doctor-y tone of his, his hand on my shoulder as he told me to breathe. I remembered him sticking a needle in my arm and the fuzziness that crept over me as he laid me down. I remembered the anger I felt at him fucking putting me out like a light, but then I remembered the warmth and calm that spread through my whole body and that maybe I shouldn’t have felt so angry towards him, he was only trying to help.

The sound of Emmett’s Jeep starting up from the garage told me that maybe they had headed to school and that’s what had woken me.

The more I thought about it, the more I realised I had been perfectly content sleeping away my demons. It had been peaceful, uninterrupted.

No, I thought suddenly. It had been interrupted. I had woken for apparently no reason and Bella had been right there. I thought it was a dream, that I’d projected her face to where I wanted to see it most in the world. She was watching me quietly a few yards from where I was lying. She looked like shit, but she was still the most beautiful girl in the world.

My thoughts jarred me back into reality. She was the only girl I’d ever thought that about. There was no other girl, no mystery girlfriend from my time in New York. The relief I felt was palpable and I sank back onto the sofa slowly.

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FMN Ch.44 Track :)

This chapter song comes courtesy of Paramore...I don't actually know why I haven't used them before because I've loved Hayley and the gang since one of my close friends introduced me to them before the Twilight films even surfaced...so go Lauren for that one :)

Anyways, I thought it mildly fitting with the way both E & B are feeling in this one, so it just had to be used :)

As always, I'll leave you a little link if you haven't heard it before, but shame on you if you haven't :)

See you next time!

Sarah x

Paramore - We Are Broken

FMN Ch.44

Guess what guys!??! I've finished writing chapter 44 of FMN!!


I had a wee look at fanfiction, and with shame I realised it has been over five months since my last update of this story. I am eternally grateful that most of you have stuck by me over the last 8 or 9 months, and I thank you all for your patience and understanding, y'all clearly rock!!


Because of this, I feel I have to reply to my reviewers before I post this chapter. With the amount of support you've all given me, it wouldn't be right to not thank y'all personally.


So, chapter 44 should be posted soon! I'll try and get through all the replies as quickly as possible!


Thanks again!!! I love you lots :D


Sarah x

BtG Ch.21 Teaser!! :)

Oh em gee!

Is there anyone still out there? I wouldn't be surprised if there's not!! But...LOOK...I've just posted a teaser for chapter 21 of Beyond the Glass!!

I can only apologise for the wait y'all have had - for all three of the stories I'm currently working on - but writer's block, uni work and less time than I used to have all factored in to the fact that you haven't read anything by me in months!!

So, without further ado, chapter 21! Enjoy :D xx

http://tl.gd/go59pq